Here we are again. In better spirits despite court this morning. I had court for my three tickets. There were no fines for the improper tag display and insurance tickets, but the accident ticket made up for it. I was so scared. I used so many Yes Sir's that I forgot to call him your honor. My brother was not their during that part and they would not let him come with me to make payment arrangements.

I finally got my homework for this week finished. I had such a hard time. I chose two poem because I thought it would make it easier, but instead it was harder. I am just not equipped to handle critiques. I just cannot find what I am supposed to be looking for. Or I do and submit and then remember too late. I do not know what is wrong with my memory. It is not getting better, but worse.

It takes me forever to get a post ready to publish because my pain is not just in my body. The vision and memory problems do not cause pain, but the migraines do. I never know when any of it is going to come. All at once or one at a time. It is hard enough to deal with trying to type with a partially numb hand. I have to really know what I want to type and why long enough to get it typed. I really did not want to make this such a negative post. So is enough of that.

I found out today that I have been making us go over our data allotment by watching Netflix and using my computer at the same time. I will be happy to get to a more reading intensive class at school to keep me away from all day movie and Facebook marathons. I figure one movie each night should be okay. I will check with my brother later to make sure.

After this really long movie--138 minutes--a little over 2 hours, I think I will be going to bed early. I have a lot to do tomorrow and cannot afford another sleepless night. I do not know if it was because of court or something else.

It has taken me quite a while to try this again. My previous attempts at blogging always got lost in the business of life. Work, family, health. A phone with the security code being crushed. You never know when something will happen. Example. A few weeks ago I was getting used to driving my brother's truck. I was just getting to the point where I was comfortable as long as it was daylight. I was following a friend to a coffee shop and thought I had the right of way. Well I did not have the right of way and the person that did crashed into the truck. It was ruled my fault for failure to yield on a left turn. I go to court tomorrow and I am terrified and have not had the chance to talk to anyone about it. So I am talking about it now. I am terrified of the total of the fines will be too much for us to pay in the required amount of time. If my brother was home at least I could cry on his shoulder. But he is not.

It feels a little awkward to write again. And it does not really matter if anyone reads it, as long as I have an outlet that is a little more private than Facebook or Twitter. I posted one to negative things and lost a slue of friends in the process. I have been struggling with loneliness ever since. I am still not back 100% and that scares me to. It is difficult to type because of the pain and numbness in my left hand. I still have problems concentrating or reading anywhere like I used to. Well I am supposed to get up early for court, so I had better hit the sheets for the time being.

See ya later everyone
Staci